So tired

I think the last week of events has caught up with me. 2 snowboarding trips, a 10k charity run and, well, nothing yesterday.

Back to work today after a pretty good weekend, Saturday I spent over near Ashford where I did my first competitive run, and I beat more people than people beat me so really happy about that, also ran my quickest 10km in 48 minutes which is pretty cool.

I have no idea what the plans for this week are, think i'm going to cinema tonighhhhttt. Going to go boarding a few days after work this week, really have been working hard on riding switch and getting my 180 jumps down, in preparation for holiday next year, which is looking like south of france at the moment......

Mental

So tonight was the first night in a while I've had time to sit about and do nothing. This weekend just gone I went to a snowboarding event where they had an airbag on the other side of a vert ramp which was very daunting at first but once I did it the first go it was pretty immense.

Managed half of a front flip indy grab which some professional photographer got on camera too which is good stuff.

Doing a sponsored run on Saturday which I have been training for, looking forward to that also. I have also been looking at booking a snowboarding holiday for next February/January.

Work has been going well, especially as this time next year I could be doing a degree, all paid for, which would then cut down my hours to 3 days a week but full pay. Nice!

Have been looking at getting a new car, some new bindings, a new helmet cam for holiday, and also holiday. It never appears to end this 'spending' stuff.

Quality

Have had a great week, been out all over Kent showing off my hard work to different surgeries and health centres. Have been out all over kent going on walks and enjoying the fresh air and sun and the company.

Cooking a nice dinner tonight which i'm looking forward too, haven't cooked properly for a while. Also going to the zoo tomorrow morning to see some zebra and giraffe.

Went boarding last night and managed to link some turns in whilst riding switch, which is pretty damn sweet and I can now work on 180's. Also been gaining a lot more confidence riding regular and got some nice speed up last night.

I've come to terms with the fact people struggle to move on and get over things, funnily enough when they're generally not involved. Thankfully the people that matter to me have already moved on and got over it and are still there. So all is good right now.

Black or White

I didn't play any PS3 today, but I went for a 2.3 mile run, without stopping or slowing down, so I am very happy about that. Had a pleasant day, mood seems to be going up and down rapidly which makes everything a little more interesting.

Big wheel keeps on turning.

What is this

Life? really?

Just a bit of silliness really. Live amongst strangers, few familiar faces, die alone, afterlife of your own choice.

Right now I have come to terms that nothing is forever, nothing is set in stone, and things change over night. Your future is only partly up to you, you have little say or doing on your future. I believe your life is planned out before you're born, how could it not be? The idea of free thinking is just a novelty. Which is why I feel people should sit back and enjoy their journey, enjoy the beginning, enjoy the middle, and enjoy the ending. It will be bumpy, it will go up and down, it will be freewheeling downhill with the wind in your hair, but it will always end the same way. Appreciate the journey while your still travelling, and savour the bad times as well as the good, a happy medium of good and bad times is key to the karma of your life. If you're going through bad times, savour them, think about how bad they are, dwell on the sadness, the pain, the annoyance and anger, and soak it up, as one day it will go, and it will turn to happiness, joy, and positive feelings, which would be made so much sweeter and mean so much more if you appreciate the bad times as well.

And most importantly, make sure you like yourself, make sure that if you had to share a room, or an apartment with yourself, that you wouldn't give yourself a headache or annoy yourself. You are the only person you will spend your whole life with, so get to know you, and appreciate you, and have a good time with you.

Do it